Yesterday was a hard day for everyone at Fairiemoon Headquarters, the day the dam broke, so to speak.
Punch, who has not been enjoying Little League AT ALL decided that he was "too sick" to play. When baseball season first started, he was just finishing his second season basketball season for the year. After the first baseball practice he said to me, "Mom, I want to quit basketball." When I asked why, he stated,"I am tired of basketball and want to focus on improving at baseball because it is my new favorite sport." I was surprised. He really didn't enjoy baseball last year. The games are long and he was always stuck in the outfield, but hey, who was I to decide, maybe baseball is his game. By the third practice, his enthusiasm for the game changed when he got hit in the back with the ball during batting practice. And in a mere moment his short, but passionate love affair with baseball ended. Since then it has gotten increasingly difficult with each game to get him to participate. Yesterday, he had just had it, and faked sick.
Now, a good mother would have probably forced him to play, knowing that he was merely faking, and to be truthful, this was my first instinct. I even said to him, in a not-so-award-winning mother-moment, "Get dressed and if you have to, throw up in the grass." But it has been a long two weeks, during which we have had school, band, dance, baseball, cub scout, etc., events every single day. I don't know about you, but I cannot handle that much scheduled time. I like to have days where we can enjoy long hours of having no plans or commitments whatsoever. Ahhh...that really sounds nice right now... Needless to say, I was tired and I had no fight left in me, so I let him fake sick with the understanding that he will participate, with that much more vim and vigor, in the next game . The problem is that everyone KNOWS he was faking because his sister also plays on his team and we still had to attend the game to cheer for her, so his whole team saw him running around on the adjacent playground, swinging on the swings and snacking on yummies from the concession stand. I am not sure he cares a wit, but Judy does.
I realize this is a really long explanation to get to the punchline, but bear with me.
In the process of trying to get Punch to participate in the game, Mr. MacGyver and I got in a wee fight, after which he had to leave for work. (I never like to people to leave when there is even a hint of irritation in the air). Then I caved in to Punch and let him sit out, which made Judy mad at me AND Punch. I was mad at Punch for so blatantly faking sick and Judy for being such a pill about it. Basically everyone was mad at everyone, except for maybe Punch, who totally got what he wanted. So I got to the game and had a little cry...in front of everyone (please understand, I cry as a release to almost every emotion...sadness, frustration, anger, joy...so this is not that unusual for me, but I usually indulge in this little vice in private rather than in front of my whole community).
Well, upon seeing my tears of frustration, my friends rallied around me...it is so good to have friends...and everything seemed to be going a bit better for awhile. But then Punch was mean to a small someone in the sandbox (really, I HAVE taught him better), and Mr. MacGyver arrived at the game right after Judy pitched, missing the brilliant moment in which she struck out her friend and nemesis TWICE, quite a braggable moment indeed. So then Judy was mad at her Dad, mad at me, mad at Punch and when Judy is mad, everyone suffers. It's the red hair.
Here she is...avoiding the camera.
I tried to cheer her up by taking silly pictures. She was not in the least bit amused.
You will be glad to know that I eventually hit upon just the thing to take the edge off of the situation, however...I suggested that we go for a walk up by the pond. She caught a couple of frogs and felt a tadpole better. Then we picked some lovely columbines. Flowers always cheer a girl up! Now her room is filled with them. After our trip to the pond, we all still felt a bit fragile but at least we were all talking to one another once again.
Do you ever have days like this? I mean, I have actually had worse days. This wasn't THAT bad in the grand scheme of things, but it wasn't that good either and it ended with everyone feeling rather fragile and out of sorts. And of course, I don't really like sharing my moments of weakness with the entire Little League.
Here is to hoping that today is better!